To anyone that felt my intentions were anything but loving and caring – I’m sorry I wasn’t able to find better words or different actions that would show you who I truly am, beyond what I’ve shown or shared. I’m not perfect and I’m still learning, but I promise – I never meant to hurt you or disrespect you or in any way bruise your heart. If our paths cross ever again, I sincerely hope I will be wiser, more mature and patient; and know how to communicate my feelings and intentions better.
To anyone I met and failed to connect with on a deep enough level, or was just too distracted by life and my own issues, I hope we do get to meet again when I’m ready for what your presence brings to my life and my expansion. If not, I understand it was just never meant to be anything more than a momentary soul handshake, and I’m grateful for it, no matter how short it was.
To those who liked me but changed their mind after a while – it’s totally OK. I understand. We grow and change, sometimes in different directions. Also, sometimes we want to like someone so much we ignore the obvious little incompatibilities and allow them to become a big deal, rather than something unique and potentially interesting. Sometimes we realise that being with someone (in any capacity or role) would require change and acceptance of things we are not ready to change or accept, so it’s easier to focus on something seemingly insignificant and make it so big we just can’t see what we liked in that person in the first place. I understand. I’m certain I have done it as well. But hopefully, thanks to these experiences, never again.
To anyone who judged me without giving me a chance to explain or bothered with my side of the story – I thank you because you have taught me to toughen up when needed, without closing my heart, else I would become the same as you. You taught me to observe more deeply; not just blindly seeing the best in people, but also their current state, the fears and luggage of their past they still dragged around, unaware. You taught me to understand and forgive because my own luggage would fill up with hurt and judgment otherwise. You taught me that no matter how much I love and support someone; if they want to see me as bad, they always will, and it has nothing to do with me, really. Maybe most importantly, you taught me to allow people to learn their own way and make their own mistakes, no matter how much I loved them and wanted to save them from the mistakes and pains I myself went through on my journey.
To everyone that loved me and felt my love back – thank you, the memories of our hearts connecting and faces radiating joy will forever be my drive forward and fuel the belief that humans are beings of love and kindness. I will always strive to honour that love and pay it forward thousandfold. I only hope you’re doing the same.
To those that still believe in me, even after many broken plans and failures and promises not (yet) fulfilled – I am eternally grateful for the love and support you have given me, and are still giving. I may never truly know what I’ve done to deserve it, but I accept it with gratitude, as I do you. I will forever be repaying it back, to you and anyone else that wanders into my life or I in theirs. Not because you would ask it of me, but because I know how precious is to be there for someone that is open enough to receive it. Having received that kindness and help and support, there is no better way of honouring it but by giving it back.
To anyone I have ever touched, helped or inspired in any way – I am thankful for the opportunity and your openness. It is not easy to ask and expose your core and be vulnerable, but you have done it and for that I admire you. It took courage and trust in something higher than ourselves. I will forever treasure your trust in me and my purity because not everyone is open enough to truly see it. Thank you, you are the source of Love and Inspiration that helps me do and be better every day.
Tamy
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